Published April 2015 by HarperTeen|207 pages
Where I Got It: I borrowed the e-book from the library
Genre: YA Contemporary
Quinn Sullivan lost the love of her life when her boyfriend, Trent, died in an accident their junior year. In an attempt to get closure, she reached out to the recipients of his donated organs. Though some answered her letters, the one Quinn feels matters most–the person who received Trent’s heart–has been silent.
Nineteen-year-old Colton Thomas has spent the last several years in and out of hospitals waiting for a heart transplant. Now that he’s finally received a new heart, Colton is regaining strength, and he’s walking away from his bedridden past with no intention of looking back. He doesn’t want to know about the person who had to die so that he could live. He only wants to move forward.
But Quinn can’t let it go. Venturing outside the system to find Colton, Quinn takes a risk in hopes of finally laying her memories to rest. But what begins as an innocent conversation quickly becomes an attraction–and to make matters worse, Colton has no idea how they’re connected. His zest for life pulls Quinn from her months of sorrow but leaves her torn between honesty and utter betrayal. Because no matter how hard she’s falling for Colton, each beat of his heart reminds her of all she’s lost.
I was excited to hear Jessi Kirby had another book, and I’m so glad I read this one!
I really felt for Quinn, and everything she was going through. I get why she reached out to Colton, and how hard it was for her to let go of her boyfriend and fall for someone else. You really do feel like she thinks she betraying her old boyfriend by letting her love someone else, and by not remembering how long it’s been since he passed away.
It just didn’t hit me emotionally the way I expected it to. Jessi Kirby’s books have a way of making me feel everything, and while I did feel really emotional, particularly at the beginning and end of the book, it was nowhere near the emotion I usually feel while reading her books.
I really wish we saw more of Quinn’s previous relationship. I actually think flashbacks would have worked well here, because I think why I didn’t completely feel her feelings of betrayal over falling for someone else because I didn’t really see what that relationship was like. I get why Quinn felt the way she did, and while it’s not necessary, I think I still would have liked it.
While we’re talking about relationships, I’m not sure how I feel about her and Colton as a couple. They are cute together, and Quinn, at some point, is going to have to move on with someone else, but I don’t know if I like that it’s Colton. Maybe her relationship with Colton is her way of starting to let go and move on, and maybe she needs to do it in baby steps, which is perfectly fine. Everyone grieves and lets go in their own way. But at the same time, there was something about Quinn falling for the guy who has her boyfriend’s heart that didn’t sit right with me.
It did seem like Colton had some things of his own to work through, and I wish we got to see a little more of that, because the book is as much about Colton living and being healthy enough to live as it is about Quinn moving on from the loss of her boyfriend.
I did love the quotes about hearts that Kirby had for each chapter. It really drew everything together.
4 stars. I didn’t love it the way I loved her other books, and I think it’s my least favorite of her books so far, but I still really liked the story!