Book: Beautiful Music For Ugly Children by Kirstin Cronn-Mills
Published October 2012 by Flux|262 pages
Where I Got It: I borrowed the paperback from the library
Genre: YA Contemporary
“This is Beautiful Music for Ugly Children, on community radio 90.3, KZUK. I’m Gabe. Welcome to my show.”
My birth name is Elizabeth, but I’m a guy. Gabe. My parents think I’ve gone crazy and the rest of the world is happy to agree with them, but I know I’m right. I’ve been a boy my whole life.
When you think about it, I’m like a record. Elizabeth is my A side, the song everybody knows, and Gabe is my B side–not heard as often, but just as good.
It’s time to let my B side play.
I liked Beautiful Music For Ugly Children! I didn’t love it, but I still think it’s a book everyone should check out. I was hesitant to read it, because it’s not an #ownvoices book, but Cronn-Mills did a pretty good job at writing Gabe, and what he was going through. It seems like she really did her research, though I could have done without the author’s note at the end. Something about it didn’t sit right with me.
I spent a lot of the book angry at how other people treated him. His parents misgender him, they call him by his birth name, and there is quite a bit of transphobia. He does live in a fairly small town (as small a town as a town that has 40,000 people can be), and I can’t say I’m surprised by how he was treated and with how people reacted. I’m trying not to assume that everyone who lives in a small-ish town is transphobic, and we do see some people who are really accepting of Gabe.
Still, his parents do come around, and I can understand why they’d have a hard time accepting that Gabe is their son. Especially his mom, who seems to feel like she did something wrong, even though she didn’t. I did find myself feeling uncomfortable at their insistence on calling Gabe Elizabeth, even though we see him correct them throughout the book.
One thing I thought was interesting was his best friend Paige. She seemed so supportive, until she herself is threatened because of her friendship with Gabe. And suddenly, she’s having a hard time with it. I’m not sure what to think about it, because she did seem so supportive initially, but when she was threatened by the same people who threatened Gabe, she seemed to have a hard time. Almost like it wasn’t real until she was personally affected by it. I get she’s maybe having a hard time that Gabe is Gabe (and not Elizabeth) but I still found myself frustrated by how she was acting.
I did love his mentor John, and the whole idea of the Ugly Children Brigade. It gave the book a nostalgic sort of vibe, and I think that part of it made me think of a couple of books: Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell and How To Say Goodbye In Robot by Natalie Standiford. If you like either of those books, then you’ll probably like this one. Plus, I liked how music tied into his story, and how A sides and B sides tied into how he saw himself. They really are kindred spirits, despite their age difference, and I loved their relationship.
Some of the terms were really derogatory and out-dated. I know this book was published in 2012, and that things have changed, but this still took away from the book a little bit. And while Gabe was a great character, I wasn’t enthused with Mara, Heather or Paige. The female characters fell flat and were pretty one-dimensional, though Paige seemed a little bit less so than the other two. And they were all love interests, which is fine, but it would have been nice to see Gabe have at least one female in his life who he has a platonic relationship with.
3 stars. I liked it, but I didn’t love it. I can’t speak to the portrayal of a character who’s transitioning, since I’m cisgender, but it does seem like Cronn-Mills did a lot of research.